| Monday, March 20th, 2006 |
| 2:48 pm |
it's been a while, dearies.
so i think LJ is officially dead. i only come on here to read other peoples' entries. ooooh. too bad. this site bores me. ::yawn:: |
| Wednesday, February 22nd, 2006 |
| 7:23 pm |
the stars will cry their blackest tears tonight.
so i'm here bored and listening to story of the year. i don't know. i don't feel much. i don't have much going on. other than loads of homework & such. so therefore. i don't have much to write about. nor do i believe that anyone actually reads this. or cares. whatever. Current Mood:  eh. |
| Friday, February 10th, 2006 |
| 6:24 pm |
are you ready to show me?
bleh. well. for the past week i've been sick. and nicoles sleeping over tonight. i have a migraine. im in a bad mood, honestly. i can't even describe why. its confusing and messed up, even to me. no point in getting anyone else involved. >.< bye now, i guess. Current Mood:  sick |
| Monday, February 6th, 2006 |
| 7:37 pm |
live again - sevendust
Feeling Nothing Lonely Empty You try to walk away but you fall You cannot understand what's this for In this world I see it more The pain you feel that I ignore You see my face and then you see nothin' Confused. you turn and live on I turn my face You're staring back again Look at yourself and live again Can't see me. you feel me Want me. you'll find me I'll be your everything Will you call You'll need more & more When you fall In this world I see it more The pain you feel that I ignore You see my face and then you see nothing Confused. you turn and live on I turn my face You're staring back again Look at yourself and live again How many times have you looked At yourself & felt mistreated How does it feel to know that This life of yours is real All of your life you've been led To believe your nothin' So look at yourself and start to live again You see my face and then you see nothing Confused you turn and live on I turn my face You're staring back again Look at yourself and live again If you don't change you'll be nothin' So look at yourself and live again I turn my face You're staring back again So look at yourself and live again Current Mood:  aggravated |
| Sunday, January 29th, 2006 |
| 7:39 am |
you bring me closer to god.
eh. so i'm here & its 7:30 in the freakin' morning. i never went to sleep. i just didnt wanna. so i stayed up & watched movies. the days kind of mesh together. i have no idea what was yesterday or today anymore. no wonder tired people act all crazy. they're confused. whatever. who cares anymore really? ♥ ♥ ♥ Current Mood:  okay |
| Wednesday, January 25th, 2006 |
| 4:26 pm |
My soul yearns for release.
whoever created finals should burn. seriously. i'm sick of studying. i'm sick of less sleep. i'm sick of test anxiety. Current Mood:  blah |
| Sunday, January 8th, 2006 |
| 9:16 am |
What doesn't kill you, only makes you stronger. Current Mood:  thoughtful |
| Saturday, January 7th, 2006 |
| 3:22 pm |
Calm before the storm, set it off.
So Meghan's here. Yay. I'm eating chicken fingers. She finished a while ago. I'm slow. We had an interesting night watching horror movies. Or rather, "horror" movies. More like vaguely creepy comedies. Don't really know what's been going on lately. We need to make a video in Freshman Seminar. Ew. & now, I'm left with no words. I don't feel like typing. This is a good enough update. Yay. ♥ Rosalie Current Mood:  blank |
| Monday, January 2nd, 2006 |
| 11:55 am |
Anxiety by Black Eyed Peas & Papa Roach
I feel like I wanna smack somebody Turn around and bitch slap somebody But I ain't goin' out bro (no, no, no) I ain't givin' into it (no, no, no) Anxieties bash my mind in Terrorizing my soul like Bin Laden But I ain't fallin' down bro (no, no, no) I won't lose control bro (no, no, no) Shackle and chained My soul feels stained I can't explain got an ich on my brain Lately my whole aim is to maintain And regain control of my mainframe My bloods boiling its beatin' out propaine My train of thoughts more like a runaway train I'm in a fast car drivin' in a fast lane In the rain and I'm might just hydroplaine I don't fear none of my enemies And I don't fear bullets from Uzi's I've been dealing with something thats worse than these That'll make you fall to your knees and thats the The anxiety the sane and the insane rivalry Paranoias brought me to my knees Lord please please please Take away my anxiety The sane and the insane rivalry Paranoias brought me to my knees Lord please please please Take away my anxiety My head keeps running away my brother The only thing making me stay my brother But I won't give into it bro (no, no, no) Gotta get myself back now God, I can't let my mind be Tell my enemy is my own Gots to find my inner wealth Gots to hold up my thoughts I can't get caught (no, no, no) I can't give into it now (no, no, no) Emotions are trapped set on lock Got my brain stuck goin through the motions Only I know what's up I'm filled up with pain Tryin' to gain my sanity Everywhere I turn its a dead end infront of me With nowhere to go gotta shake this anxiety Got me feelin' strange paranoia took over me And its weighin' me down And I can't run any longer, yo Knees to the ground I don't fear none of my enemies And I don't fear bullets from Uzi's I've been dealing with something thats worse than these That'll make you fall to your knees and thats the The anxiety the sane and the insane rivalry Paranoias brought me to my knees Lord please please please Take away my anxiety The sane and the insane rivalry Paranoias brought me to my knees Lord please please please Take away my anxiety |
| Wednesday, December 28th, 2005 |
| 9:25 am |
I'm over it.
So hi. Corrinne is here. We've been cam-whoring. She took pictures of me dancing in muh undies. Heh. & we went shopping. It was grand. Today we're going out to eat. Mm food. And we've established many odd inside jokes. That I WON'T type here. You'll be disturbed, I promise. ANYWAYS, byebye people. see ya whenever I see ya. Current Mood: okay |
| Monday, December 26th, 2005 |
| 8:39 am |
And if you die, I want to die with you.
So, erm. I'm awake. It's 8:40 in the damn morning. I'd much rather be sleeping, yo. Yesterday was Christmas. It wasn't bad, much better than previous years. I actually enjoyed my parents company for once. *gaspshockdeath* I got a couple CDs, hoodies, a bunch of books, & yeah. Too lazy to name off the rest. This week SHOULD be good. We're picking up Corrinne in about an hour or so. & yeah. Wahoo to that. :] I guess I'm gonna go. Don't really feel like rambling anymore. :P Current Mood:  tired |
| Thursday, December 15th, 2005 |
| 11:11 am |
Erm. I don't know.
GAH! Now I'm mad. I've finished this entry twice before & it froze up when I went to submit it. Totally not cool. Anyways, back to the point. I'm obviously home sick. I woke up last night feeling like my stomach was going to explode and throwing up. Not fun, lemme tell ya. *!RANDOM UPDATES!* - The doctor needs to up my dosage. No joke. - I submitted my New Orleans essay. I REALLY hope I'm picked to go. - Liking people is too complicated. I give up. - Petty drama is for the weak-minded. Life is too short to be constantly fighting. - If my cat throws up in my room once more, I'm selling that beast to the gypsies. - We don't have a Christmas tree again this year. We have a metal piece of shit with branches that you hang little people off of. It's extremely odd. - So here's my plans for the weekend: Friday = Sleeping over Sarah's house Saturday = Kristin and Lindsey's party Sunday = Nothing planned yet Bye, dears. I'm going now. ♥ Rosalie Current Mood: sick |
| Thursday, December 8th, 2005 |
| 7:36 pm |
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| Monday, December 5th, 2005 |
| 6:18 pm |
Uh, so yeah. I'm here.
I haven't updated in a million years. So I'm doing a quick news flash bulletin. *dun na na na na* I broke up with James because I'd rather be friends. Corrinne might be coming up for Christmas break. I bought/made presents for people. So I better be getting things in return! I got married -- twice! Once to Nicole & once to James. So therefore me, James, Nicole, & Jerry (my previous husband) are married. :) School still sucks ass. But I have my eye on a certain someone there. So its bearable for now. :) Current Mood: okay |
| Sunday, November 20th, 2005 |
| 11:43 am |
Stay with me & fall asleep.
Hey everyone. Long time no update. :) So things have been alright, kind of hectic. Friday Liz slept over & I was wicked sick. I threw up & had a pounding headache. Not fun.Yesterday I went to the mall with Kristin, Britt, Sarah, Negin, Liz, James, Chip, & Tyler. It was pretty fun. I bought the Coheed & Cambria CD, a hat & gloves, & a shirt. Then Negin slept over. & today I'm going to read & study & clean. -_- Not by choice, of course. So these are my plans for the long weekend :) Wednesday: Haircut probably! Thursday: Thanksgiving "feast" & hanging out with Negin Friday: Sleepover at Alexandra's Saturday: Kim sleeping over maybe? Sunday: Free & relaxing Whoo. So yeah, my update is done. Byebye now. :D Current Mood: okay |
| Tuesday, November 15th, 2005 |
| 1:45 pm |
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| Monday, November 14th, 2005 |
| 11:58 am |
No anti-depressants = an interesting entry
Hey everyone. What's up? I stayed home today because I didn't feel too great & I just wasn't in the mood to go back, at all. ::sigh:: I don't know. I'm not in the best of moods & things have been getting confusing. I'll update on my weekend though. I don't feel like burdening you with my problems. Thursday: Alexandra slept over & I passed out at 11 Friday: Saw 2 with James Saturday: Hung out with Sarah, Chelsea, & James Saturday Night: Kim & Sarah slept over & we stayed up until 3 in the morning Sunday: James & Steve came over my house So yeah. That was basically my extra-long weekend. Now I'm sitting here listening to Bleed the Dream & moping. I hate moping. It makes me feel like I'm stupid, thinking about my problems when things could be WAY worse. & gah. I don't understand what my problem is. Things are good. I have a boyfriend. & awesome friends. & decent grades. But I'm still not happy. What the hell... Current Mood:  confused |
| Friday, November 11th, 2005 |
| 11:49 am |
Another day off & stuff.
Hey! It's Friday everyone & my weekend is going to be alright. Alexandras slept over last night & yeah. Now she's here & reading a book next to me. Then she's leaving at 1:50 & Steph & Ted are coming here to get a ride to the movies with me. & then James is joining us & we're seeing Saw2. Tomorrow I'm supposed to be hanging out with Tyler & a group, but I'm not positive about that yet. & Sunday is free, I believe. So leave plans! :D Current Mood: okay |
| Tuesday, November 8th, 2005 |
| 12:56 pm |
So I heard today's going to be interesting?! Damn straight. Current Mood:  weird |
| Sunday, November 6th, 2005 |
| 7:41 am |
La la laaa.
Yeah, so yesterday was pretty awesome. I woke up in a bad mood & went to sleep in a good one. I spent most of the morning online, resolving the whole problem mentioned in earlier entries. Then I got ready & went to meet Kim, Steve, & James at the mall at 12. They were about a half hour late, but that's okay. While I was waiting, this weird lady talked to me about gorillas & running away to England & yeah. Then they arrived & we went to PacSun so James could buy a green belt. I'm not sure how it helped, his pants were still WICKED low. Then we went in Hot Topic & I got a pair of "Heartbreaker" sweatpants. Then we went to Spencers & Steve got some 8 gauges & we played with shock items for about 10 minutes. Lemme tell ya, those things hurt like a bitch. Once we got out of there, we started going to Target, but me & James jumped into one of those kiddie cars & went on a safari. Haha we got pictures from it too. I might post them. Then we went into Debbie's Animal Hell, as I fondly refer to it. Finally we got to Target & made fun of the drinks they had & went into the bike section. Then all hell broke loose. Kim kicked a couple soccer balls & knocked shit down. I rode a bike around the store yelling "WHEE!" I thought we were going to get kicked out, but whatever. Then we left & headed to get food. But we made many stops at Journey's, a shoe store, & other places. Finally we made it to the food court. I didn't eat because I just wasn't hungry. On the way to there though, I tried to get my picture taken with Santa. It was sad. It costs 17 dollars. What, there's no clearance Santa anymore?! Whatever. Then we walked to Eastern Boarders & James almost got run over. Then we stayed there for a little bit & walked back. Then we sat for the longest time until we gathered the energy to walk. Then we made stops at Victoria's Secret, Discovery Channel, & American Eagle & Macy's. Then we went to FYE where I bought a CD & we hung around there for a bit. Then we walked to the food court & sat until Kim's dad picked us up. Whoa. Her little sister is crazy, but cool. I sat a lot of the ride giggling at what she was saying/doing. Then I got dropped off & spent the rest of the night online. :) *takes breath* Whoo. Longest entry in a while. :) Current Mood:  bouncy |
| Saturday, November 5th, 2005 |
| 9:11 am |
:)
Yay. I'm happy. The last entry's problem got resolved. :) Current Mood:  happy |
| 6:17 am |
And if you killed me now, I'd probably praise you.
So it's uber early. & I'm sitting here listening to Coheed and Cambria. Kind of in a bad mood. But I have entire reason. I've been asleep since 5:50 last night because I couldn't deal with thinking about how much I screwed up. ::sigh:: I'll recount the details since there's no point in complaining & not explaining. Alright. So I make these friends Kim & Steve (the boyfriend). And I talk to both online. Unfortunately my joking & talking to Steve got me in trouble. I jokingly mentioned that I was lazy and that I needed someone to push me around in a wheelbarrow. And after convincing, Steve said he would (not seriously since the whole conversation was a joke) Kim didn't think it was much of a joke. Neither did her friend Nicki. Kim was extremely upset evidently. She TOLD me she wasn't & gave me a hug. But somehow I think she was lying. 'Cuz Ted said she was on the verge of tears & that I was an asshole. Steve won't talk to me. Nicki called me a redheaded whore. & I checked comments from her to other people & they said things along the lines of "You'd make a better boyfriend. He flirts too much" & I was taken off her Top 8 on myspace. I tried calling her & no answer. Now I'm supposed to go to the mall today with her, Steve, & James. I don't know. I'm so confused. Why is it I can't talk to a guy without it being flirting? Liz said it's just because I'm friendly & that I smile a lot so it seems like flirting. Well, I can't change that. I'm not going to be a bitch & not talk to my guy friends because it seems like "flirting". But it seems I have no choice in this instance. Because I LOVE Kim. She's a great person & I love how we relate. So if she doesn't want me talking to Steve, I won't. Honestly I'll say hi & leave it at that. Compromising their relationship is the worst thing I've done in a long time. Anyone have any advice? I kind of feel clueless. Current Mood:  depressed |
| Thursday, November 3rd, 2005 |
| 5:44 am |
DO IT. :)
::WHAT IF:: 1. I died: 2. I kissed you: 3. I lived next door to you: 4. I started smoking: 5. I stole something: 6. I was hospitalized: 7. I ran away from home: 8. I got into a fight and you weren't there? ::WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:: 9. Personality: 10. Eyes: 11. Hair: 12. Family: ::WOULD YOU:: 13. Be my friend? 14. Keep a secret if I told you one? 15. Hold my hand? 16. Take a bullet for me? 17. Keep in touch? 18. Try and solve my problems? 19. Love me? 20. Date me? ::HAVE YOU EVER:: 21. Lied to make me feel better? 22. Wanted to kiss me? 23. Wanted to kill me? 24. Broke my heart? 25. Kept something important from me? 26. Thought I was unbearably annoying? ::AND MORE:: 27. Who are you? 28. Are we friends? 29. When and how did we meet? 30. Describe me in one word: 31. What was your first impression? 32. Do you still think that way about me now? 33. What reminds you of me? 34. If you could give me anything, what would it be? 35. How well do you know me? 36. When's the last time you saw me? 37. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't? 38. Are you gonna repost this to see what I say about you? |
| Thursday, October 27th, 2005 |
| 6:57 pm |
-_-
Negin's moving again. Goddamnit. Current Mood: aggravated |
| Tuesday, October 25th, 2005 |
| 4:21 pm |
Blood Test Results!
From what they can tell, the results were negative. Something odd was found in how my blood clots though. But they're not sure what it means yet. So they're sending it to my pediatrician to evaluate. Whoo. :) Current Mood:  lazy |
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